Anxiety and Depression is real – it may not be spoken about. I never really understood until I felt it. I recently discovered both, as for my character I found it unusual. My friends and family would describe a strong individual and knows what she wants so when I recently broke up with my ex boyfriend (As you would have read in my recent blogs - why we broke up. He left me for someone else), the anxiety kicked in overthinking – I kept thinking is he with her? Was he staying at her house? It took a toll on me. The depression came in the WHY? Why did he leave me? What did I do wrong? Why did I feel so empty? He did so many things which were disrespectful why did I care so much about him? The abandonment, the unwanted feeling , the unloved feeling and the feeling of approval from him. It will take time ‘rejection is protection for something better’.
Running helped me – seems like I was running away from the problems. Getting outside, leaving my house and breathing was relief. This helped me and let me appreciate the outdoors. Being at home made me over think - being outside I was more distracted. Even just walking and any exercise (my thing was I want to have an incredible body so he can see what he missed out on, after time that doesn’t matter I just enjoyed working out). Do it every day it will help so much even the days you don’t feel too.
You need to remember this is just a season – it will pass if you want it too. Nothing lasts forever you must have heard it many times now. All it takes is small steps to make a big difference. You might have been heartbroken before, guess what you came out of it – looking back at it you might have thought how am I going to get through this? Maybe you lost weight which you never thought you would. Everything is temporary to a certain extent. So I know it is hard and you feel like you will never come out of this stage. But I promise you will and there is a light at the end of the tunnel.
Be productive in a different way – new energies, new ideas, new strength and being positive. I know it sounds cliché, I been through it but I came out the other side a better person. YOU can too. It all starts with you! When you feel fear and pain you need to release it. Biggest thing helped me when I was scrambling for answers – praying and trying to understand Faith. First stop going back to what keeps hurting you.
Release the pain by:
1. Praying (if you do know where to start – TD JAKES YouTube)
2. Writing all your thoughts and emotions – do not let the emotions get the better of you. Where do you think this blog started?
3. At work if you feel trapped – listen to youtube videos on motivation.
4. Running – gets you in great shape
6. Shopping – retail theory
7. Learning a new skill – might earn you some extra money
8. Reading – develop and better yourself.
9. Bullet Journal – let me really express myself. (Should have a blog on it soon.- WATCH OUT) 10. Talking about it – friends and family willing to listen
12. Going out and spending time with people
14. Put your favourite song on (I did not enjoy music for three months since the breakup – but got addicted to a song Addison Lee –very silly song but it made me so happy)
Small steps as I mentioned before – try one thing every day and box depression out the ring! You will have dark days or bad days which you feel like it is not getting better. But focus on the days which were good and pray to the Lord to give you strength to change the day. It’s ok to have a bad day – cry if you need to. You might be sick, might be going through a divorce or financial problems. If you one of three, would you want the other two? But someone else is going through the other two scenarios. Your crisis is here to serve you a purpose use it as FUEL. Pain is the best fuel it will make you come out of your comfort zone as you have nothing to lose.
SUFFERING is a CHOICE – you can be a victim or you can TAKE the opportunity to ensure the glass is half full not half empty. Some days you feel like a victim which is fine, but most days say to yourself – I WILL NOT LET THIS BEAT ME. Dark times don’t last we know that – ask yourself how do I use this heartbreak to make me stronger, wiser and better!!!
Pain will always be there – its life. If you cannot experience pain you cannot appreciate the wonderful things the Lord gives you. You have heard before - ‘you miss it once it is gone’. Same with valuing and being grateful for things. People might not understand what you are going through – it is ok. This is your journey don’t worry about other people. Just do you! It all starts with you!
Power in Pray
Lets get it – One Love.
British Asian Female- working in the Finance industry plus a MUA - wanted to share the journey I have been through. Comment or email me!!